My much loved malamute, Sheena, is not doing very well. She is an old dog at twelve years, but I didn't realize just how old until the last couple of weeks.
I hardly noticed her downwards progression at first. When the weather grew warm this spring her appetite decreased to the point that she hardly ate anything. Not a real big deal, I thought, it happens every spring. Sheena is the worlds furriest dog and has always been a little out of whack with the seasons when it comes to losing her winter pelt. The heat always makes her lazy and as a result, she never eats much during the first few warms weeks of the spring and summer. When I had both dogs into the vet's in mid April for their yearly vaccinations and regular checkup, I mentioned the loss of appetite to the vet. He looked her over and wasn't concerned, old age combined with warm weather he figured. Sheena was seventy-five pounds on the scale, the same as she had been at her last checkup. I took her home, not particularly concerned. The vet had found nothing else wrong with her.
A month and a half passed. Sheena was still lethargic, maybe even more than usual. It was hard to tell. Her appetite had dwindled to the point where she'd often go a whole day without eating anything. Some days, she wouldn't even get up to greet me when I got home from work and she hardly seemed to have the energy to wag her tail. Not good, I thought, but I didn't clue in to how badly she was doing until I took her out on a short hiking trip. Poor old dog could hardly manage a kilometre. She kept lagging behind me, tongue lolling and panting furiously, barely able to muster anything more than a slow walk. That's when I started to worry that something was really wrong. Last summer she could do 15km without too much of a problem, but one year is a long time in a dog's life...
I took Sheena back to the vet shortly after I returned from my trip. She was sixty pounds on the scale, down twenty percent of her body mass, and little more than skin and bones for a dog her size,
and I had hardly noticed! She's such a fluffy dog that it's hard to find the actual animal under all that fur. If I had known that she'd grown that thin, I would have had her at the vets much sooner.
The vet's inital findings were not good. Anemic, a moderate fever, and congested lungs. He was worried about the anemia more than anything else and sceduled a visit for x-rays in a few days. I was sent home with some antibiotics and told to feed Sheena whatever she would eat.
The x-rays came back inconclusive but worrisome. The heart was the wrong shape and quite enlarged and there was fluid in the lungs. Troublesome shadows in the area of the spleen as well. Congestive heart failure was part of his diagnosis but he thought there was a tumor somewhere, probably in the spleen, that was destroying red blood cells and causing the anemia. I was given some meds to help clear up Sheena's lungs, some other stuff to ease the pressure on her enlarged heart and was told to enjoy the time I had left with her.
And for a few days, she brightened up. She was breathing easier and some of her appetite returned. But just as soon as she improved she went downhill again. She could hardly get up when I got home today, and when she finally did her left front leg and foot wouldn't work properly and she kept tripping and fell over a few times. I've only managed to get her to eat two small pieces of meat in the last two days...
Soon I will have to say goodbye to a very dear friend. I've known this day would come, I guess all pet owners do, but now that I've realized it is almost here I'm having a real tough time dealing with that knowledge. I get very attached to my dogs, but Sheena is a special case and I'm more attached to her than any other dog I've had. She is my first malamute, a dog that was seized by the SPCA from an abusive owner over eight long years ago. She was a complete wreck when I got her, thin, scruffy, terrified of everyone and everything. I was the first person in her life to treat her with kindness and after some hard work and lots of TLC she has become simply the best dog I have ever shared my life with.
It will be incredibly hard for me to say goodbye to her. Life will just not be the same without her at my side...